Thursday, February 12, 2009

Do I really want this?

I'm reluctantly pulling together another residency application that has to be postmarked by Saturday. But my social calendar dictates tomorrow - before 1pm. What kills me is that I've applied and been an alternate three years in a row. This is one I've always wanted. But right now, surrounded by strips of paper to spin, a subscription series to conceive and execute, textbooks to buy and study, and research to do, I have lost all perspective. I wonder, as I reformat all of my documents to fit A4 paper and choose a new tactic (applying as a visual artist rather than a new genres artist), if I still want it badly enough to lose some sleep and run around like a crazy person tomorrow. Do I still want the colony circuit? Most of me says no. But then a little part of me still drools over the scenery.

Being sleepy doesn't help me make this decision OR slog thru the app (which, of course, this year has gotten a little more demanding). I guess it's back to the cutting and pasting. The slide list being easier than the essays.

3 comments:

  1. Colony circuit? Do you mean "artist's colony?" There's a CIRCUIT?! Cool.

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  2. l would leave it for next year.....

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  3. yeah, artist colony. people on the circuit call it that...hopping from one to the next. some artists actually manage to do that forever. i'm not, but sometimes fear i'm headed in a similar direction!

    the app is done but getting it printed and in the mail will be another HUGE task. it's raining cats and dogs in seoul now.

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